To Fill the God-shaped Void
What do you do when someone seems bent on self-destruction and taking everyone down with him? That’s the question many families have had to face, including Nate’s.
It had been 20 years of pain.
Now, Nathan was waking up, cold, hungry and bewildered, in an empty field.
His longsuffering wife finally had issued an ultimatum: get out and don’t ever come back until you are clean, sober and serious about changing your life.
“At that point, I had lost everything,” recalls Nathan. “I had lost my wife and kids, my job, my car…it was all gone.”
The bright young man from Pryor had become a full-blown drug and alcohol addict, incapable of holding down a job for long or of being the husband and father he knew he ought to be.
“I had been on a reckless path,” admits Nathan. “She couldn’t take it anymore.”
It never seemed likely that Nathan would end up a homeless drug addict. He had been raised in a good Christian home, attending church frequently. Although his parents split, he nurtured dreams of one day becoming a lawyer. Gradually that dream slipped away and so did the influence of the church. As a teen, he rebelled against what he saw as a rules-bound, legalistic faith he could never live up to. So, instead of trying, he went the other way, experimenting with drugs and alcohol.
“It started out as fun, then it turned into a lifestyle,” he says.
For years, his life revolved around how to get high and keep the party going. He went through a lot of jobs and caused a lot of turmoil in the lives of his loved ones.
Finally, after a lot of tears and pain, grace broke through with his wife’s ultimatum. Nathan realized he had to do something to change or remain homeless and maybe spend the rest of his life cut off from the ones he loved.